|Posted on August 13, 2018 at 1:50 PM|
Last night was yet another night of not really sleeping. I did use that meditation/sleep music I found on You tube.....I did feel relaxed...and I think I may have dozed off several times because time seemed to pass quickly......but if I did, it was for very short periods of time. I finally got out of bed around 1:30 and watched some silly show on Netflix until around 3am. I didn't really feel tired at that point, but figured I needed to try or be a complete zombie today- it took me quite awhile, but I finally fell asleep. Last time I looked at the time, it was just after 3am. I woke at 7am. The odd part of this....odd, but good, is I didn't feel all stressed out about not being able to sleep and when I woke, my body didn't hurt all over. Proving, at least to me, that this body aching, or at least a great deal of it, has to do with the amount of tension I am carrying in my body. So, I am continuing to do meditation an relaxation techniques. They certainly seem to be helping. I did call the surgeon today, they are going to set up a time to insert that lovely portacath...ugghh. Not looking forward to that, but I get it's necessary. I think I have turned some kind of corner, or maybe more like something has, at last shifted? my stress level certainly has-at least today.